The Spiral Starts

[ Lyrics ]

One crack, the whole thing broke.

Missed the deadline, forgot the hook,
voice memo full of words I took out the book.
They said, 'You’ll be fine,' but I froze mid-call,
held the phone too tight like it might just fall.
Told the collab, 'Rain check,' then cried in my coat,
tried to sing a new line but my throat stayed closed.
Best friend’s number cold, she texts with a lie,
'Busy' — same word my lover used when he hid the reply.

Therapist says, 'Let it out,' but I mute the sound,
watch my breath on the glass, no face in the crowd.
One lie, one bed, one look left unspoken—
now every promise feels half-hearted, half-broken.

One crack, the whole thing broke,
like a vase I dropped but couldn’t soak.
One name, now the silence grows,
drapes over dreams like laundry in the snow.
One night, now the rhythm’s slow—
did it always sound this hollow?
One crack… and the whole thing broke.

Panic in the green room, lights too bright,
said 'I’m okay' with a smile I didn’t write.
Ran through the lines like a script in my head,
but my mind was a hallway with voices instead.
Mom called twice, I let it ring —
used to answer fast, now I do anything
to avoid the 'How are you, baby?' tone,
knowing she’d hear the lie, knowing I’m not home.

Therapist says, 'Try the meds,' I just nod,
sit in the chair like a waxwork doll.
One trust, now I second-guess
even my own reflection, dressed in finesse.

One crack, the whole thing broke,
like a vase I dropped but couldn’t soak.
One name, now the silence grows,
drapes over dreams like laundry in the snow.
One night, now the rhythm’s slow—
did it always sound this hollow?
One crack… and the whole thing broke.

It wasn't just love — it was every wire,
every thread I leaned on, every higher
hope I built on 'us' and 'now' and 'stay'—
all burned down in a single day.

And the smoke? It’s still here. In my chest. In my speech.
One crack… wasn't just one breach.

One crack, the whole thing broke,
now the pieces cut every time I move.
One name, now the silence screams,
crawls under skin like a bad dream.
One night, now my heart won’t beat—
just a slow pulse I can’t repeat.
One crack… and the whole thing broke.

One crack…

…broke.