Pattern Interrupt

[ Lyrics ]

I didn’t fall — I jumped twice.

Same script, different year, same lie I call fate,
flash of temper, then a kiss, and I apologize first. 
You said I liked the drama — nah, I liked the flame,
stayed for the high, ignored the scar tissue and pain.
Saw the signs, red as lipstick on the sink,
but I rewrote the ending — told myself, 'This one’s different.'
Cried in the shower, wrote a hook in the steam,
'He’s worth it' was the chorus, but the truth was in the theme.

Pulse kicks in when the phone starts to blink,
thrill of the text that feels like a drink.
I don’t miss you — no, I miss the rush,
the crash, the chaos, the way I blush
when I'm wronged but still reply...

I didn’t fall — I jumped twice,
chose the storm just to feel alive.
Not the one he was, but the one I believed,
dancing blind while the record grieved.
I didn’t fall — I jumped into fire,
chasing highs I now recognize.
Pattern interrupt — I see it now.

Studio light in my eyes, late night, no plan,
played back a verse — stopped the track with my hand.
Hear the words I’ve sung on three past albums,
same man, new face, same heart-shaped trauma.
I pick the ones who can't be caught,
then blame the net when I get lost.
My mom said, 'You like it loud, not kind,'
and damn — she wasn’t wrong the first time.

Pulse slows down, clarity floods,
no text tonight — I’m not in the mood.
I don’t miss you — I miss the hole,
the ache that made me feel whole.
Now I'm filling it with truth...

I didn’t fall — I jumped twice,
chose the storm just to feel alive.
Not the one he was, but the one I believed,
dancing blind while the record grieved.
I didn’t fall — I jumped into fire,
chasing highs I now recognize.
Pattern interrupt — I see it now.

Used to think love was a fight to win,
damage proof, wear it on my skin.
Now I know it’s soft, it’s slow, it’s safe,
and I scared it off with every mistake.

I didn’t fall — I jumped once for fun,
twice for love, now I’m done.
Not the one he was, but the ghost in my mind,
I’m laying you down with all the others I lied to.
I didn’t fall — I built the fall,
then sang about it, post it all.
Pattern interrupted — I’m breaking the sound.

Yeah… pattern interrupted.